Sigh.

...where passion meets bitter humor. That pretty much sums me up doesn't it? I have passion. Endless amounts of passion. Too much, for some people's tastes I'm sure of it. I'm sorry if the following passion is too messy and gets all over your neatly knitted sweater. Buy a bib, buttercup.

I am a wreck. Let's be honest here. I like to pretend I have my shit together, but I am wandering aimlessly in life at the moment and need my character defining treasures to keep me together while I'm falling apart. It is so hard when someone is directly malicious, vindictive and relentless about making you feel insignificant. Subtle, but true. When someone is hellbent on twisting circumstances and power to jab at you in such a way that it is hard to detect. Well, if you are an avid reader or close friend you will know that my bullshit detector is keen. I detect thy bullshit. I know what is going on. I've always hated the phrase "don't take it personal." Nalright.

Look, here's the scoop: I am not mad. I am not upset. I am hurt. I know it must be hard to understand someone who has feelings and isn't a robot, but I am hurt that I thought higher of you than you thought of me. I am hurt that I was slowly letting you in and you burned me. I am hurt that what I really needed was someone to believe in me and you shat on me instead. I could say foul things about you and I could mastermind vicious schemes but what would that make me? That would make me you. And that is why I am going to simply say, thank you for reminding me what it feels like to be human. I love raw emotions and you gave me the opportunity to feel them. It is a glorious gift. God bless, and good luck.

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[Captain]

Its interesting isn't it? How someone's life can suck sooo bad that they have to tear other people down to get their rocks off?

I'm tired of hearing about the professionalism of the damn thing. The fact is, it's not professional. No one is getting paid. It's a community theatre.

Is it so hard to just make it a fun time?

Apparently. Apparently its much more important to try to make it as "professional" as possible. That way, it may APPEAR to other people that your life doesn't suck as bad as it does.

So to all the Watertown divas, have a blast. I'm sorry your lives suck so damn bad.

I'm out.