I know, you knew, I know.
They don't stop to talk, they just pass and grin. Fooled by a smile, they wave as the joke is on them. I am baffled that you believed it. I am shocked that you assumed so many things. I am terrified that everything I've ever said to you is now ammunition. My tongue must spill these truths bursting from my heart or else the chest concealing it may burst.
Not never. You know that. You've always known that. NOT NEVER. I could write a thousand words to show you what you mean and it would all be in haste. I can't win. I will never win. I will always be this one way mirror to you. Spill your every thought, hope, dream and fantasy into me. All you will see is it reflected. All the while I'm screaming at the top of my lungs, trying to make you understand that everything I'm saying is coming from a place of true love and adoration for you. Yet, It's too late.
You lost me. Not when you said the love was gone. Not when you found someone new. Not when you assumed that I was acting the way you expected. You lost me today. When the respect flew out the window. When you didn't trust your gut - and took me for a fool. I'm not. You are. And in the end I still have the last laugh.
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